A, bb appreciation prose 🌹
I died today
For much too long, I tried so hard to stay
Flirting with limbo
Until I could bend no more
I could not stretch my hands further
Running at super sonic speed one day I crashed into my father
I found him when I went wandering
Through the meadows of nature
And it hit me that this was painted by his brush and
All the bumping and jiving
The sneaking, the lying
The sex and reckless driving
The tree and long islands
Could not compare to the feeling of freedom I got that day when I lift my eyes up
Fresh water streaked down my cheeks
And collected into a puddle reflecting my whole life
Mirroring the emptiness
The bitter loneliness that all along I’d tried to hide back when
I was driven by my passion and desire
To feel loved
But the good news is that I let it all go
And I died today
And the world could go up in flames
And I wouldn’t batt a lash
Because of the many they put on His back
I’m free and forever an heir
And there’s no chance of me turning to salt
Cause there’s no looking back from here
I find myself wandering about
fading in and out of daydreams
snippets of things imagined, things unseen
things that haven’t happened yet, things between you and me
And I wonder for a split second could this be?
Could we both be falling
for the wrong thing…
Yet some time ago I couldn’t feel a thing
numb to the idea of my heart pulsating for anyone
then you stormed into my life
Water-falling me into complete submission
Cascading your presence into my daily consumption
You remind me that the moon knows when to shine and the sun surely rises
I wake to your face and its smiling
Is this a dream?
Cause sometimes it feels like I’m flying.
Even if only for a second
I have to finally accept that
You are permanently ingrained in my grey matter
my eyes flicker at the hope, at the sheer potential of
A reflection of myself fading deep within your iris.
I fell on bended knees
weeping with hurt and sadness all around me
all the bad, darkness and the heartbreaks of yesterday’s consuming my mental
Father, I can’t even look you in your eyes
my shame and guilt have led me blind
But with my head hanging down I cling to your feet
Because you’re the only good thing that I know
The only one to whom I can go
But why do I allow these people to hurt me so?
Queen, get up.
My daughter go spend time with me
laugh and sing and talk freely
For it’s only I who can interpret that song your heart sings
Only I can heal that pain he brings
And look at me with those beautiful brown eyes
And that brilliant sparkling smile
And go on with your life
You are so much more than this
I planned more for you than to just exist
Trust in me and you’ll be free
And I promise that in my love,
you will truly find peace
So stand strong
For I am the foundation you are built on.
Every time you stumble, or choke on the sin-filled air of this world; I will breathe you back to life.
Daughter, you have to know that,
Your beautiful soul is worth dying
So be still and stop all your crying.
For indeed you know who I am.
The Conquering Lion.
So resilient she was born
with a fragile stamp mistakenly
placed on her forehead
And she has scars
But even the invisible wounds can’t tear her apart
From the start,
she fought with a strength
with a passion for life and with unwavering faith
She, in all her glory and clothed in all His grace
Short but tall
Frail yet strong
She will never fall
Come storms, come hail, come all enemies far and long
She won’t be broken
Because He lies within her
The hope and love needed to sustain
He provides it all so surely
she will be great
And she will recover all upon the break of dawn.
(Inspired by Psalm 46:5)
I’m so into it. Will be posting some pieces soon.
I’ll be doing something a little different with this blog and the poetry/prose/narratives I post. I’ll try to accompany them with an analysis if you will. I never feel compelled to justify my work because I do very much believe in poetic license and freedom but some of these are just too deep lol and require some context maybe for better understanding. Some of them won’t require as much but yeah. Let’s see how this goes.