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Free Falling

I find myself wandering about

fading in and out of daydreams

snippets of things imagined, things unseen

things that haven’t happened yet, things between you and me

 

And I wonder for a split second could this be?

Could we both be falling

for the wrong thing…

 

Yet some time ago I couldn’t feel a thing

numb to the idea of my heart pulsating for anyone

then you stormed into my life

Water-falling me into complete submission

Cascading your presence into my daily consumption

 

You remind me that the moon knows when to shine and the sun surely rises

I wake to your face and its smiling

Is this a dream?

Cause sometimes it feels like I’m flying.

 

Even if only for a second

I have to finally accept that

You are permanently ingrained in my grey matter

my eyes flicker at the hope, at the sheer potential of

A reflection of myself fading deep within your iris.

 

 

 

 

The Hopeless Romantic

This person is in love with love.They believe in fairy tales and love.They’re not to be confused as stalkers or creepy because that’s not what a hopeless romantic is. All hopeless romantics are idealists,the sentimental dreamers,the imaginative and the fanciful when you get to know them.They often live with rose colored glasses on.They make lovelook like an art form with all the romantic things they do for their special someone. 

I always thought I was a hopeless romantic. Hopeless in the sense that the love I imagined I should have will never exist. But I was wrong. I’m a hopeful romantic. I’m in love with love and like Kendrick said “I love so much, I love when love hurts.” This is because I have so much love inside of me. I used to say I was just a “sucker for love” but no. love is a sucker for me. I’m by nature just a very loving person and my heart is very big I just want to spread love all around. Romantic or otherwise. So I have to be hopeful that there’s someone out there who can receive that. I am pretty much this definition but I think it hints at this idea of lack of reality. People think you’re a hopeless romantic because you are not realistic about the kind of love you deserve or can obtain hence the “rose-colored glasses.” But let’s be real. I know everything isn’t rosy. But you can have whatever you want in this world if you can think it. If you have faith and believe it. So I believe I can have it. I’m very realistic about what the reality of my love life is.

SO yeah lol this was a pretty random post but I just felt like saying I think people should stop being negative and calling themselves hopeless romantics simply because they have bigger ideas for the kind of love they want. Why would you settle for a complacent dull commitment when you could have passionate and complex depth with another person? It’s that depth and that passion that I long for and the truth is it’s hard to find but like Adele said “He’d be hard to chase but good to catch” so I keep hope alive. 

808’s

Hope and faith have guided me through some of the toughest of times. But it is love that has kept my spirits up. It is love that has allowed me to find comfort through extenuating circumstances. God forbid there come a day where I am too bitter to love. I hope that I am strong enough and brave enough to love intentionally. And to forgive those who have hurt me deeply. I feel it’s the saddest tragedy that many people stay stuck in the valley of the unforgiveness of themselves. It seems hard to forgive yourself because you feel like how could you have allowed this to happen or how could you be so foolish? I really dislike these negative thoughts and it’s no good to dwell on them. Pray about everything and worry about nothing and all will be well.

I believe that God knows what he’s doing in my life. It’s just unfortunate that sometimes you have to go through unimaginable trials and hardships that take such tolls on your heart. But thank God this makes you stronger. It builds your endurance because as life goes on it only gets harder but with experience you grow wiser. I just hope I can make it past my moments of sadness and gloom and once again be filled with a happiness.   Life is what you make it. In the bible it says as a man thinketh so is he. And I believe that I am beautiful. I believe that I will be successful. I believe that I am intelligent. And I believe that I am special. So all these must be true. The true joy I have been able to experience has only been because of God as he delivered me from the darkest of times. So I’d rather reflect upon the good things he’s done in my life than to dwell on temporary heartaches. 

Self love is the greatest of all. Know your worth and really believe in yourself. Look in the mirror and love that person you see. Make her smile like no man can. Remind her of her fathers love. Speak positivity into her life. You have to be dedicated to loving yourself and above all loving God. Because only He will be there with you wherever you go. And sometimes it takes heartbreaks and heartaches and bumps in the road for you to realize that it’s only He that can heal you from any and everything. So never take that relationship for granted. 

Creative Nonfiction

I’m so into it. Will be posting some pieces soon.

I’ll be doing something a little different with this blog and the poetry/prose/narratives I post. I’ll try to accompany them with an analysis if you will. I never feel compelled to justify my work because I do very much believe in poetic license and freedom but some of these are just too deep lol and require some context maybe for better understanding. Some of them won’t require as much but yeah. Let’s see how this goes.