Category Archives: Poems

Angel’s Dust

It’s like crack,
Harlem shaking through your bones
It always brings you back to
Burnt glass dicks and a powdered nose
This is what life through sore eyes has become

A thick ball of pain and suppression caught right in the throat
Sunken brown eyes, blood shot red on disguising the truth
The vapors, the capsules and inhalation redefining your youth

You quit like a thousand times
Rehabbing from bad habits
Hoping the color returns to your face
But condemn yourself when you can’t
And return to the trap houses, where many a night you’ve slept on cold floors,
These have become the safe houses of your reality
Blanketed in the comfort of familiarity

So you slip again
Apologize again
Ain’t got a friend
But in drugs you feel closer to the God you feel within so you pray
Pray hard
Pray He just takes you away
Until another hit lights your soul on fire
Feels so good, what could be so bad about wanting to get higher?

This vicious cycle rips away chunks of your existence with fatal shark-sized bites
How could something so wrong feel so right?
Feel so light…
Take your spirit on flight
But imprison the beautiful temple where the power within you lives to break free of such a life

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Death to the Flesh

I died today
For much too long, I tried so hard to stay
Flirting with limbo
Until I could bend no more
I could not stretch my hands further

Running at super sonic speed one day I crashed into my father

I found him when I went wandering
Through the meadows of nature
And it hit me that this was painted by his brush and
All the bumping and jiving
The sneaking, the lying
The sex and reckless driving
The tree and long islands
Could not compare to the feeling of freedom I got that day when I lift my eyes up

Fresh water streaked down my cheeks
And collected into a puddle reflecting my whole life
Mirroring the emptiness
The bitter loneliness that all along I’d tried to hide back when
I was driven by my passion and desire
To feel loved
Feel happy
Feel wanted
Feel something

But the good news is that I let it all go
And I died today
And the world could go up in flames
And I wouldn’t batt a lash
Because of the many they put on His back
I’m free and forever an heir
And there’s no chance of me turning to salt
Cause there’s no looking back from here

Her cry to the sky on bended knee

I’ve been running out of pavement
And these heels, they have been aching
Pitch black all around but my feet they glow
Providing just enough light to keep me
From falling off a cliff or stubbing my toe

This, is the shadow the Bible told me about
The empty space of nothingness where
Some lose their souls

Just keep me where the light is
Don’t let my heart break down in this hole
Rain down bursts of sun-rays
That shake me into believing you’ll finally let go of my history of doubt and disbelief
Suffocating inside

Demons out raging, all I need is time
But I’m running out of pavement create a bridge I can climb
To get closer to where you are so I know your love is mine

Free Falling

I find myself wandering about

fading in and out of daydreams

snippets of things imagined, things unseen

things that haven’t happened yet, things between you and me

 

And I wonder for a split second could this be?

Could we both be falling

for the wrong thing…

 

Yet some time ago I couldn’t feel a thing

numb to the idea of my heart pulsating for anyone

then you stormed into my life

Water-falling me into complete submission

Cascading your presence into my daily consumption

 

You remind me that the moon knows when to shine and the sun surely rises

I wake to your face and its smiling

Is this a dream?

Cause sometimes it feels like I’m flying.

 

Even if only for a second

I have to finally accept that

You are permanently ingrained in my grey matter

my eyes flicker at the hope, at the sheer potential of

A reflection of myself fading deep within your iris.

 

 

 

 

Some Day

I’ll look ocean deep into your brown eyes
Your iris will capture even my third eyes attention, and no words will be exchanged but
My heart will flutter without hesitation

This is the feeling lovers and dreamers sing songs about
We pour out our art, painting vivid pictures of how things start and the butterflies that ensue to consume your inside parts

Some day, I will catch myself falling for you
Though you and others have warned me so
Some day I will allow sweet somethings to escape from my lips
Some day I will engrave poetry into your skin  while we watch the moons eclipse

And some day, when our beautiful brown skinned, pearly white smiles meet there will be a flicker of electricity pulsating between souls

You’ve awakened something in me I thought had gone cold
Some day you will see that all I wanted was for you to be happy
With or without me
I have grown to care so much about a being who’s energy is so vibrant it transcends all space, distance or time and

Some day, I hope to keep you smiling
Near or far I pray you see through it all
Through all the pain and twisted past that make us who we are
Some day I hope you embrace me with open arms

And one day, and I know this for certain, I’ll dial up heavens hotlines and thank God for blessing me with someone like you.

These Chains

Her nose was bloodied

And her head was bowed.

Tears streamed down her cheeks

She lost her voice and never made a sound
Unaware of the crown on her head

She remained focused on the ground

She felt lost, like she could never be found

These chains seemed to be the only things connecting her to the world around

These cold hard chains she got used to

Until one day her Father helped his daughter up from all her sorrows and deep blues

He held her head up and said

“You are loved. You are queen,

can’t you see the crown I’ve placed on your head?

I told you once I’d die for you and I’d never leave you for dead

So please my child, have faith and believe in the good things that lie ahead.”

She felt the chains shake beneath her

She was standing on His solid foundation

And all at once she felt her heart defrosting

Beating fast and lively she couldn’t contain it

Her veins regained circulation

and she looked in the mirror through her brand new eyes

The joy she felt from this reassurance

Her stream of tears dried

She’d never felt more alive

All she needed to know was that He loved her all along

And that all those times she felt alone,

He was listening to her hearts sad song

And not only hear it but help her change the melody

She said,

“Father I just want to be a better me and I know it’s only through you that I could ever be. Free me from this bondage. Break these chains up off me, so like the eagle I will fly too.”